trust to find yourself
when it finally ends
and you have only yourself
as the darkness creeps in
and it grows cold

Melt earth into the sea
So all is clean again
Without any regrets
Or hints of our feelings
To scar the land again

Chance to fall
And tumble down
Until nothing moves
Feeling your insides bleed
And flow out onto the cold ground

Be alone at night
And lose oneself
And be oneself
And live in your fears

When it grows cold
You will find me there
Dancing among the stars
Alone and silent
Joyless and calm

In the end
A flash will suffice
To recapture this life
As it extinguishes

He didn't want to die anymore
Listening to the wind
Howls as it worked through the pass
Feeling the pebbles, stones, and shurbs
Pushing through the backside of his uniform
Sensing that his blood was spilling out
As his lungs slowed down

Looking inward at last
It is dark and cold
And becoming hard to move

Hints of snow in the woods
Slowing drifting downward
Not even as flakes
But as white granulars
Waiting to cover the dead leaves
Along with me

into a hole
dark and cold
alone
without anyone
it lives
only in hiding

I feel you laugh
As my skin scrunches
Under my nails
I lift a heavy dull sledge
And swing hard
Mocking you own sad creation
Pushing it down into the mud


(Revised from 1997)

He hit himself
Pushing the rest of the world
Away for just a moment
As a soft trickle of blood
Worked its way down his cheeck

Come down to the river
Sleep on it snowy side
Listen as it sings
Feel its cold embrace
On this clear December eve

The world of winter
Is the world of the inside
The cold pushes us inside
Away from the wilderness
And into the world we have created

What if we knew that the world would end
Could we find the courage to save it
With a world that want to hold us down to the ground
With the comforts of our bed
With joys of a beer with friends after work
With the warm embrace of a plasma glow
Perhaps we all need an end
Perhaps